It's been 10 years we've been best friends. Time really does fly like... ... Well I couldn't think of any right word to fit in, you know what I mean. We're being friends since childhood, same primary school, neighbors for years, until I moved to be with my mother. And I definitely remembered all the time we've spent to play, lucky to have him in my childhood honestly. We always cover each other. Well I should probably say that he's the one who always cover me. That's why I appreciate him so much like a family. He's a really innocence guy, especially when facing girls... The girl that he have a crush on I shall say. He knows how to take care of people, his general knowledge is incredible, at least for me. But most of the time he doesn't know how to deal with things around him. You can say he's stupid or blur, yet you'll think he's very smart thinking. But somehow, it's a disaster for being his friend. You have listen to his crap about his feeling. I kinda enjoy that, in some way. Because I feel like I'm the only one he can trust and rely on, proud is the right word I guess. Being his friend, you have to know what to do next when he's in trouble. What I mean trouble is basicly like when he can't find someone he wants to contact, he will panic. Then this is the time you come out and solve the problem for him. Because he will only call the cell phone, you have to remind him to call the house phone as well. There you go. I'm being like his mother all the time. Teaching a little boy how to deal things in daily.
Being with a toy for 10 years is easy, but being friends for 10 years? Not everyone in the world can actually do that. Maybe you don't agree, but it's true. There's always new things are fresh than the old things. Can you actually keep a toy for 10 years? Not for me at least. FYI, I always wanted to be a psychologist. I like to study people, read their body language, sometimes face expressions betray their owners. I won't say that I'm good in that, but I do think I know him better than anyone else. I can read his mind. Once he move a step, I know what he's thinking right at the moment. Frankly, he's no good in lying. I KNOW when he's telling the truth and when he's lying to me or the others. He asked why am I always know what he's thinking in his mind, I couldn't give him an answer, because I really don't have one. I JUST know it. That's it. End of the story. In the past 10 years, we did lots of bad things to each other. Never spoke to each other for weeks, or months? But mostly I was the one who talk to him first. 'Cause mostly are my faults, I guess? I just felt guilty. And he forgave me every single time.
But this time, I don't know anymore. Lots of things happened and changed in 10 years. As we growing up and getting older, judging people and storing the negatives are increasing, don't we? Teenage eh? We can always remember what others done to us and do repay or do revenge. Human is complicated. Human being is ridiculous. Human mind is safisticated. Gosh where did I just came out that sentence? Doesn't make any sense at all! Funny...
Maybe because he is my best friend, I do care about everything happens between us. I can't face him with this, anger. Yet I want to be like the old days. He's always there for me. I share almost everything with him. Happy or sad, sweet or sour. That's what friends for huh? Thanks to Marianne taught me that.
People say true friends will do everything for you, it's true you know? Because it really did happened to me. I'm lucky to experience that in my life. Not to say one friend, but those friends who always be with me, they really did a good job. Every night I'll refresh my mind to remember who help me out of trouble and sadness. Seriously, true friend is hard to find. Do appreciate them if you found one, or above. Because I'm in confused situation, being stuck in many ways, I need to tell you my experience. What I've been through wasn't easy. Of course so does everybody else. Not like I'm the only one who suffer on this earth, there's lot more people who suffer more than million times that you can imagine. At least I can still crap about my feelings through here =)
Being a 10 years friend, I can study his moves, his mind, share his knowledges, but I never learned how to be a good friend in 10 years time. How pathetic.
I am still struggling now, hope tomorrow is a different day.
Come to think of that, a movie can really helps you to relax for moments.
Confession Of A Shopaholic is not bad. I like this film a lot. I thought the book is nice too. Should buy some other series. And for that, Feh Fan and Jun Lim think I'm very talented to be one of the shopaholic. Well thanks guys. I like the Shopaholic name. Hey everyone! My new nickname is Yvonne the Shopaholic! Oh I'm so prrrrrroud!
