sWeEt tImE...

*phewwww......* Finally... I feel better today when saw my beloved choir babies... woooo........

TY was the first person who talking with me today... Cause she need to take her... Errrr... ... Watever... hehe... Then we talk talk talk... Untill the perhimpunan began... Actually, i'm still in a bad mood in that time... Cause can't stop thinking about the competition yesterday... But she told me in the same time, "Don't be sad... You still have next year right? Can win on that time ma..." Well, maybe she's right. Oh i mean, we sure win on next year! Cause wanna win for my beloved sister and our Almighty CUTE Conductor ma... *wooo... haha...*

But then, i saw my alto babies... Running towards me then hug me... And still crying at the same time!!! OMG! Ham Bao... Stop crying la... Make me wanna cry also... *sub sub...* OH KELLY... My dear... Why so sad?! We've tried our best! And TY are very proud of you girls! I know you all have sing it very well liao... Althought we didn't get into the top 5. But we have a nice time in there right? Our last practise was the best one!! Agree, TY? *mmm... yayaya... of cause!* See! She agree too la... haha... Anyway, you all are the best! I'm very proud of you girls too... *cry...*

Then we went to the sciense lab *which where the place we practise all the time* together... But the funny thing is, we don't know each other in there too! *that's call TEAMWORK guys* Then we have a great time in there... The Sabah Lou sign his 'name' on the blackboard. Others follow lo... *mmm... Teamwork too... haha* But of cause me don't have la... I'm not so pin tai one... hehe...

Oh... Pin Tai... This let me think about my beloved sister again... *sigh* I'm thinking the time when you gonna leave our school... Leave us from choir... How i'm gonna see you again... Must be very miss you leh... *ahem... i mean we all laaa...* Hope you'll always come and visit us... And hold your mighty hanger stand in front of us and point to teach... haha... So pin tai... But however, the time was flies very fast... Now already in July... How much time we still remain? Just a few months only... Haih... I'm gonna very very miss you leh... Can't sing without a Pin Tai Sotong beside me... heh... By the way, i'm really appreciate what you have done for us... We never forget you and CH... Thanks for all the things... And let me be your sister *or zhi mui* I'm really proud of that... We are lucky cause you sing in alto this year... wow... Sotong sing in alto... How gao siu... *heee....*

Well, hope the time will pass slowly... So that we can have more time to see each other... I'm sure i'll cry like SHIT when the last day in school... Oh no... I'm starting now... *cry... ...* Fine, by the way, hope you get a good result for your SPM... Then you can do what ever you like to... *you like free ma...* And our CUTE conductor... DO NOT go VI next year!!! Or else i'll kill you! You also Pin Tai Sotong!

That's all people... To be continue...


For our most respect Almighty CUTE Conductor and Pin Tai Sotong,

we LOVE you two FOREVER!!!

...

... I know everybody is very sad now... But please don't make others people worry about you ok? ...

Yes. We didn't get into final... But it doens't mean that we DON'T win on next year?!! It doens't mean that we CAN'T get into final right?! Now, this person is finding that person, that person is trying to contact this person, you thought you're playing 'Hide and Seek' is it?! That's not funny you know?... You just making your friends more worry about you only! You very happy with that is it?! Do you know your friends are very worry now? WTF***ing things on your mind? You sad, your friends sad too! Everyone is sad too! Don't be so selfish ok?

Come on la... Chill up!!! We still have next year! And how about next next year?! We must work together again now... Nobody's gonna quit and nobody's gonna get away from now! If who quit, i'm the first one who gonna f**k him/her!!! Don't try to be funny with me now... If you feel you can't lose, you better go now! We need a people who can handle a bad situation, we don't need a people who will easily give up... That is what TY taught me!!!

There's always next year... We always try to learn the wrong thing and change it to be good... What we gotta do right now, is rest well and concentrate for next year... Work more harder then ever! Even the young teen can think like that, why you can't?! Just look in front of our future, then it'll make you feel better or even do better then now... Somone told me, he will never leave choir because he think we still have a chance to win and we are always the best... But, it seems like he's the one who fed up first...

I don't know we can win or not on next year... But if we continue giving up, our choir sure will close by the school's pentadbiran... *you all know that our school is not supporting us right? ask them go S**KS their ASSSSS la!!!* We gotta show them that we are the champion!!! They can't close our club!!! If they did, i'm the first one go KICK THEIR ASSSS!!!

Who dare to be with me now?

Disappointed...

Well, the results came out today...
We got no.6...

What a bad news for us... Everybody feel upsad when we heard that *of cause crying around lo...* Me? What can i say? Just no mood to talk with anyone, even to my sister...

Do you think that we got no.6 is very good? NO!!! The competition only choose TOP 5 for the final! And we got no.6!... ... Only 1 more step, then we can enter to final! But however, we just got into 6th place... I don't know why we can't get into top 5, because i think we already sing it well, even compare to others team, but the damn f***ing VI did get in. So what can we do?... ... ... The only thing that we can do now is, keep on practise untill next year and crash them down again...

The only thing that making me desperated is, i can't win the competition to a friend that i most respect... Althought we sang well today, but still got one thing that make me unhappy... I'm not saying the Altos ok? I know they did well today, they've did their best on the stage... I mean, really, you girls sang very well today, i'm very proud of you all... WELL DONE!!!

I'm just angry with myself... Why i can't teach them more perfectly? Why i wanted to give up them before? They can SING!!! YES!!! I'm telling you! THEY CAN SING!!! AND THEY CAN SING VERY WELL!!!!!! Maybe the problem is me... Honestly, i'm not teaching them in a nice way... I always feel that they are not giving their heart to choir, they didn't sing it well, they always don't want to practise, and this and that... But i was wrong, they CAN sing. And i can say that i'm not a good leader for them... I'm very regret what i did to them... I'm sure that you girls are very hate me right? Now i know what i do is wrong. I'm suppose to go on with you all, not giving up with you... So, i'm here to say sorry to you girls, hope you can forgive me...

For my belover sister, i'm very sorry that i can't win this for you. This is your last year in our school, but i totally can't win anything for you, i feel that i'm useless *at least i admit that* I know you sure feel disappointed with this, but anyway, i can tell that we all have did our best, althought we didn't win it... Well, what i can do for you is, i'll try my best to teach them next year. We will win it for you next year! I promise. And i hope that you can come and visit us on next year *of cause can't without our Almighty Cute Conducter la*

Surely, i'm very sad for the results *and angry* But, we can't do anything with that. Just gotta keep on practise and practise... Honestly, i'm sure that all the choir members are crying when they reach home. Me either. After taking the bath, sitting on my bed and started to cry... I cry not because of we didn't get in, the reason is i can't win this for my sister...

I'm really very disappointed with myself... Really... ... ...

tOmOrRoW iS tHe dAy...

TOMORROW IS THE DAY!!!...

What day? Of cause is our choir competition day laaa... Im getting nervous now... *phew...*
Today we keep on practise from 8 to 4... But still have a little bit to improve... Some of the altos still don't know the pitch *or can't reach that pitch... whatever...* Sopranos not sing it loud and not clear... Basses... Errr... OK laaa... *but they still have to improve lo...* Tenors! You are the s**ks wan! You guys sing too fast la... We can't follow... ... But anyway, we're improve a lot if compared to yesterday...

Well, Debbie came and practise with us today... For the new members, i think they like her MORE then the BITCH that's J****e... IS IT? *oh... of cause yes la... hehe...* Mmmm... ... Then we polished, polished, polished and keep on polished untill CH let us go... ERRR... So i went home... Then after bath i online lo... Chat, chat, chat... And writting THIS errr... NON-SENSE?! Haha... *whatever...*

WOW!!! TOMORROW LEH... So damn nervous man... But we still have to try our best right?... Well CH, i promise that we will try our best on tomorrow. *at least altos are under me! heh! except TY la... she so damn GENG... she's my Dai Ka Jie you know...* Haih... What will happen on tomorrow? Will we win? At least we get into top 5 laaa... OOPSSS!!!... ... I mean, OF CAUSE we will WIN la!!!

Who's the winner? ... sAuJaNa tHe wInNeR!!! *YAY!!!*

Please... GOD BLESS US...

wHaKe mE !!!

Well... Back again... Am i doing the right thing or the wrong one?

QUIT... This word, some one told me before... But now, im telling to other people...
Is it this word so important? When you say it, sure others will keep asking you - " Is it true? Are you gonna 2 quit?! Why? " - Hmm... Why? Me wanted to know too...

Anyway, im keep asking myself this question too... But however, i can't find the answer... Why i wanna quit? Maybe they are not sing it well? - No. Maybe i don't like it? - No. Maybe they are not listening to me? - No. Maybe they are sucks? - No either. Or maybe... ... ... im the sucks one? That's why i wanna quit? - Maybe the answer is " EXACTLY YES!!" ... ...

Oh well oh well... ... ... They are not that sucks actually... It's just me... Im the one who SUCKS!!!
Some of my friends asked me why i want to join choir? Then i said " Because i love to sing. Love to sing with my belover choir teammates..." But why? Why i want to quit that 2 DAYS before competition?! The answer is... There is no reason that can make me quit...

Yup... FF was right... There is no reason that can make me quit choir and leave my fellow altos...
Cause i love them very much!!! Why am i always angry with them? Cause i care about them... I care about them that's why im here to teaching you girls!! And i know that you all have been tried your best. But there are only 2 MORE DAYS LEFT!!! You girls gotta practise more harder then ever! I know you can do it! Right? And i know TY will agree with me too... Will you?

Sorry that i make you all so worry about this... Especially TY... Thank you very much... You told me NEVER GIVE UP right? Now i promise you, i will go on with you... *although you are not my mom... but you're still my 'leng lui ka jie' right? haha...* And CH, i know what you mean. I never blame you before actually. Really...

Yeah... I've been made a big mistake *same as you TY...* ... ... Please whake me up!!! ... Sorry TY, i'd let you disappoint on me again... Please forgive me... And for my belover friends, sorry for you guys too...

So, the conclusion is... ... ...


I LOVE CHOIR!!! Im not quit... anymore... ... ...

iM tIrEd fOr tHeM...

Before i start, im gonna say SORRY for my friends that's Fan Fan, MT, CH and others cause im decided to do something that maybe will make you guys angry... Especially for TY, i feel very very sorry to her... But anyway, im already decided it... ...

Well, it's choir again...
Why choir? Because choir meant a lot for me. And it gave me a lot of great memories... Choir gave me friends too, such as TY, CH, Aimee (the Sei Yeh), FF, the Chuah Twins and many many more... But somehow, although i spended all my time and energy for it, i got nothing...

For altos... I admit that im NOT the best singer in alto *or even the worst one* , but i've been tried my best for teaching you girls... However, you're not paying attension when we teach. Even we KEEP teaching and KEEP telling the part you've sang wrong, you girls are always KEEP forgotten!! *how old are you?!* Is it the TOILET is your SECOND HOME or what?! I mean, you girls really want to sing and win or not? Why you all wanted to joined choir? Because that we won the first place in KL? or just simply come and sing?! C'mon! There's only 2 MORE DAYS!!!

Let me tell you, singing in a choir team is not a easy job. We need to practise as much as we can *choir is not a place for you to sing solo too!!* If you really want to win, please practise as much as you can. Remember all the things that we've been taught. Or else, please GET OFF and do not join in anymore!!!
You know what? I've been very tired for you guys... And there's enough for me to stress up so much... ... ...


Im quit...

Our Practise...

Well, today our choir team was practised as usual from 8am to 4pm... Only the difference is that we are practising in the Reading Hall... ERRR... ... And we sounds like improved a lot *yay!!* But the only problem is ALTOS!!! *@#$%!@#$%...*

Alto, alto, alto, alto... ... ... Why must you girls sing like a MAN?! Can't you just be a normal WOMAN and sing it SMOOTHLY?! How many times im gonna to tell you sing SOFTLY?! C'mon laaa... Please laaa... The competition is not far from now... Only 3 days left... 3 DAYS LEFT!! 3 DAYS!!! *Oh God*

And another problem is, Miss K***y Clarkson... You! Yes! YOU!!! YOU are the one who make alto SUCKS!! Always sing the wrong pitch, and You are the loudest too! Please go home practise and listen to your voice that you sing... Or else, I'LL KICK YOUR ASSSSS!!!!!!!!!!! *WTF?!*

Anyway, today TY and CH going to argue with the Pengetua again... **why are the teachers always want us to win but don't give time for us to practise?! WTF***ing things on their mind?! they don't want us to win is it?! is it?! IS IT?!** But of cause, TY and CH won again... *hoohoooo...* We still can practise from 8 to 4...

We still believe that we can win in the competition *at least get top 3 laaa... * LET'S CRASH VI UNTILL 'GENG GENG' WAN!!! ... ... sAuJaNa tHe cHaMpIoN!!!!!!!!!!!