sMiLe...

Friday - what?

Gotong-royong tomorrow! What the??? I want to sleep man!!! Give me a break...

Choir after school. Heard that Kelly are going to quit because of emotion problems and blah blah blah...

Already passed the letter to Farn Yeong. Just have to wait for his approvement tomorrow.

Looking for her during recess. And all i got is a wave and a smile. Well, better than nothing right? At least she still treat me as a FRIEND. i guess.

Oh and Anna, don't be sad. I'm here to sayang you... Karen, don't be so desperate, everything will be fine... Marianne, take care of yourself nicely... GET WELL SOON... Tsing, you'll find out your ferrari soon... At least you still got ME!

Prepare to have a tiring day on tomorrow...

Westlife the Irish men ---

MANDY~
WELL YOU CAME AND YOU GAVE WITHOUT TAKING~
BUT I SENT YOU AWAY OH MANDY~
WELL YOU KISSED ME AND STOPPED ME FROM SHAKING~
AND I NEED YOU TODAY OH MANDY~

better day~
-just from the best damn yk-

nO mOrE...

Thursday - frustrated

It's you. It's always be you.

You're my sis. You're the one that i always need. I remember the first time we met in school in 1 year ago. It was Lili and Lisa introduce you for me. I thought you're a quiet student girl, but actually you're not. You are very nice and friendly. We played everything together. We've spent a lot of great time together last year.

In this year, we're getting more close with each other. Sisters are the relationship of us. We share everything. Our family, our background, our secrets, our friends, our stories... We keep in touch every single night. MSN, phone calls... We talked everything. And then finally you become a prefect. Lots of gossips around you and LCM... But we went through it together. We go through lots of things. Our relationship are getting more and more closer...

Until the big problems came out from last month. Lots of things we have to face. It's between you and LCM. I've tried my best to help. But it seems useless. I felt so useless in that moment. I don't know what else i can do for you both. So, i've decided to do a decision for you...

I give my time that i can spend with you to LCM. So that you both have more time to meet in each day. You asked me why i don't wanna talk to you these few days but i didn't answer. Because i know you'll feel guilty or something which i don't want you to be. But i was trying to tell you actually, it's just you found out before i could tell you. You mad with me and i understand that you have the right reason to angry with. I never blame you on this, but myself.

I wrote letter to you yesterday, but the things you said are so hurt to me.

"I think we better be friends than sisters now."

I was so angry and sad. And i tore the paper and threw it!

All the things that i've done for you are like no meaning for you. How could you said that to me??? I rather you don't forgive me than don't be sisters anymore. But anyhow, i respect your decision. At least, i've helped you to do a decision now. And i think that's the best way to solve this. You chose him. And i totally understand why. And that's the point that i'm doing this. I know it's stupid but, at least you got what you want and live happily right? I don't want you to be suffering between me and him. I don't want to be your burden.

Now, i know you're happy with him. All i can say is sorry for what i've done to you, and wish you both happy together forever. I just want you to be happy. I don't mind to sacrifice everything for you...

.................................................................

I really wish that time can switch back like before. But i know it's impossible... There's no miracle in this world. At least i think it is.

I quit.

An old song from Mariah Carey ---

I CAN'T LIVE~
IF LIVING IS WITHOUT YOU~
I CAN'T LIVE~
I CAN'T LIVE ANYMORE~

i'm in hell now~
-just from the best damn yk-

GOSH!!!

Wednesday - angry

What a sucks day today! Prefects sucks! School sucks! Friends sucks! My whole life sucks!!!

I already fed up with school prefects. No one can do their duty well. No one can help on this team. LCM changed. Farn Yeong attacked by people. Kar Yan sucks! So who's going to help us???

I know Farn Yeong did tried his best but just not enough. He need people to support him. Couciling is all we meet everyday after school now. Mr. Geoffrey was very busy with us these days. I'd never see couciling room had a crowd so far...

Leong Choy Meng... You used to be my best friend. But now, i really don't know who you are anymore... Are you still my friend? But i feel that you're changing now these days. I used to think that you're my good friend ya know? But when Kuan Hang told me that something about you, i'm started to think is it true about you? I'm wondering have you ever treat me as your friend? I don't ask for good or best friend but just FRIEND. Have you???

Sometimes things that you do will make you feel regret. A very one. Time can't switch back like before. So please think properly before you do it. Think about the future. Think about the people around you...

And yes, i've done something that makes me VERY VERY VERY regret in my life. The more i live the more i suffer. So why i'm still living?

Bowling For Soup, MTV new hits ---

AND I KNOW THAT WE GONNA BE FINE~
AND THE TATOOED MISTAKES ARE GONNA FADE OVER TIME~
AS LONG AS WE LIVE~
TIME PASSES BY~
AND WE WON'T GET IT BACK WHEN WE DIE~

pissed off day~
-just from the best damn yk-

GooDByE mY fRiEnD...

Sunday - leaving

Melissa...

Sorry that i can't send you to airport. Hope you'll forgive me. I will miss you like hell man.

Know you since form 1 choir. Thought you're kinda quiet but not. Tsing Yie was your bestie. You both share everything and stories. I can't imagine what will happened after 5 years when you come back to Malaysia.

Too much to say. Hope you'll feel how i feel for you.

All the best in U.S. Wish you live happily at there. Don't forget to send me your contact number and address. Keep in touch ya. We'll miss you very much. Don't forget about us. Friends forever! Goodbye my dear friend...

God bless you~

Jordin Sparks the American Idol ( Bee Gees the original ) ---

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IS LIFE~
BABY YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IS LIFE~
TO LOVE SOMEBODY~
TO LOVE SOMEBODY~
THE WAY I LOVE YOU~

lost day~
-just from the best damn yk-

nAh...

Saturday - sien

Was wake by mommy this 'morning' at 12 something to out for 'breakfast'. Gosh let me sleep! I'm so tired these few days...

Thanks to MT. Thanks for all the things you've done for me. I really appreciate it. It's hard to find a friend that can share everything with. Especially we already been 8 years friend. I'm really lucky to have you as my friend. Yes it's FRIEND. You guys don't think to other way please...

Thanks for everything pal.

Nah... Happy now?

Josh Gorban the great man ---

YOU RAISE ME UP~
SO I CAN STAND ON MOUNTAIN~

nothing to do day~
-just from the best damn yk-

Is It???

Friday - weird

Don't say i perasan. But i feel that everyone was infect by me. Everybody look so damn sad and down today. Ya know Choy Meng... Emelia... Sharon... Myself... Kuan Hang... Anna... Jun Lim... Farn Yeong... Even Pui Yin, yeah she did cried today.

What happened actually? I was trying to chill myself up and smile at you guys. But why things are always happened in so suddenly? They still studying and play and laugh with me this morning. But after 2 p.m, everyone like turn to crazy already. Choy Meng mad. Sharon sad. Emelia crazy. Kuan Hang sad. Anna very sad. Jun Lim sad. Farn Yeong cried. And of course so do Pui Yin. Myself... You guess?

I'd talked to Mr. Geoffrey today. He was a very nice guy. Patience... We've spent almost 2 hours for the so-called counseling. I'd told him a lot about my stories... My friends... My family... My... Whatever. And so do him. He told a lot about himself too. Overall it's just feel very comfortable to be with him.

I don't know it's ngam ngam or what. When i'm sad, everyone will follow. Like everything is controling in my hand. If it does, i feel so guilty til i hate myself.

Marianne, thanks for your sweets. Your sweets are melting my heart. Thanks to Qi Ying too. Sharon of course. I'm so lucky to have her in my life. I used to think friends are important to me. But now, they are more important than ever. Without them, i really don't know how to continue my life.

Melissa, you're going to leave us soon. Can't imagine what will happen on that day. But always remember us k? We'll miss you like hell you know? Hope you'll do well in U.S.

Tsing Yie, i'll never forget you. You always giving me support eventhough we can't meet so often now.

Til then. Hopefully i can see your guys smilies again.

P.S : Friends are very important in life.

Feh Fan's favourite ---

KAU TAHU BERTAPA KU SAYANG PADA MU~
HANYA BIDADARI SEBAGAI GANTI~
HANYA TAKDIR MENETUKAN IA~
OH BELAIAN JIWA~

a very tired day~
-just from the best damn yk-

Dead...

Thursday - dead line

We can't make it to top 5. But unfortunately, we got number 6th again. It was close. How disappointed... We're rushing and totally out of tempo. But overall, we are better than last year.

Cried like hell after the competition. Thanks to my alto babies that always giving me support. And yet to Ganesh, Yi Hui, Jun Lim, Feh Fan, Ivan, Hon Lean, Choy Meng, Chi Hou, Samuel i guess, and a lot more that i don't even remember who else, they hug me and giving some strong words to me which i really appreciate it. And to MT, thanks for letting me sharing your bag. Thanks to everyone, Aimee, you're always the best. Sorry if i didn't mention your name here... All i can say is THANK YOU very much!

And of course, Sharon. I know you've tried very hard to chill me up but just not in this moment. You're always there to support me and i really very lucky to have you as my sis. Marianne, thanks for your words too. I really appreciate it a lot. And i wonder what's my surprise for tomorrow??? At last but not least, thanks to my mommy! Eventhough she was in thailand but still called me far from there...

Congrats to Sentosa, it's a great begining for the first year.

I'd lose in the competition but i won my friendship. That's enough for me.
Althought we lose, but we decided to keep on practice even harder than ever. Never give up...

Til then. Feel dead but yet still alive.

Avril Lavigne is always my favourite ---

KEEP HOLDING ON~

i don't wanna talk about what day is today~
-just from the best damn yk-

Bloody...

Saturday - don't know


Bloody hell blogspot can't load pictures. So too bad for ya'll can't see my pictures for Malacca's trip. Anyway, i'll post them when blogspot turn to 'normal', again...

Still sick, but much more better than last few days. At least fever gone, yet cough and flu are still visiting me.

Competition on next thursday. I don't know its a good thing or a bad thing. Songs are good but we sang sucks. First year for Sentosa... 3 of our ex-seniors are in there... So let's see what will happen... Well what you expect to happen though? hahaha...

To all choir members, please take care of your voice and body nice nice... Keep healthy and drink lots of water. Jaga-jaga what you eat. And last, keep on PRACTICE!!! Or else you watch out...

Til then, get well soon.

Jojo the 17 girl ---

DO YOU KNOW~ HOW TO TOUCH~ A GIRL~

women tennis day~
-just from the best damn yk-