nEw YeAr EvE...

Last day of 2007. Everyone, make a wish at 12am tonight if you wish you have a good coming year.
Facing 4 walls at home, waiting to see the fireworks from my window, listening to music that i love, watching shows that i like, life is easy and peace for me now. How i wish the school won't be started so soon.
Happy New Year my friends...
Marianne, forget about the sadness and start a new life. Wish you'll get your endless wishes on the next moment. For friendship, cheers~

i'M sIcK oF iT...

I'm tired. Just tired. Why can't you stop bothering me just for 1 minute? All i want is just peace. Leave me alone k?
To the assholeS, yes i added an S there because there's not only 1 person, i never say who are they and what are they but whoever they think they are one of those, please stop your attitude upon me k? I just can't stand for it. Maybe i'm afraid of you, maybe i'm scare of it, or maybe i have no guts to take the risk. But i just don't like it, i don't like and don't want it to bother me in my daily life k? I want some space, some space that only belong to me and i can do whatever bloody stuff i want. Your faces and your words are coming out everywhere whenever i close my eyes. You know i never sleep since saturday, yes again.
I've done loads of things, and tons of things waiting for me to do, i'm so tired. I want a better sleep, a sleep that can be no bother by anything.
I'm tired to pack my bag, i'm tired to eat, i'm tired to talk, i'm tired tomove, i'm even tired to open my eyes. I just hope that i'll never wake up in the next morning...

rEsPeCt...

Some people just don't understand what's respect mean, and that's really pissed me off.
You people are human right? You know when is the right time to do the right thing isn't it? Most of the time i really don't mind and don't care what you've said and done to me. But it doesn't mean that you can keep on insulting people even more that ever right? I don't wanna argue with you because i thought you will stop with your so-called bloody jokes. I tried my very best to control my anger upon you guys because i know once we break down it'll effect to the others. I find excuses for you just because i don't want to remember the thing's you've said and done to me. We meet in school everyday, in our class, in our free time, the time we've spent, actually is more than i spent with my own family. All of you are close enough with me in class right? Don't you know what is respect? Don't you still don't know what i don't like? Don't you?? I'm being very patience with you guys and you should have know that.
I know i'm fat, so what? At least i have no diabetes. I'm tougher than you asshole.
I know i'm ugly, but nobody's perfect right? You're not the most glamorous in school either fucker.
I know i'm rude, but what do you think you are? Prince William?
I know i'm stupid, but you're not the smartest in the world are you?
If you think you look awful together with me then tell me honestly k? I'll stay miles away far from you don't worry, because i don't want to be your friend either. I'll feel ashamed when we stand together. I would like to be alone so i can do and say whatever i want.
I'm always the evil one, and you guys are the heroes. Do you ever think back who always pay for you drinks and food? Who always there to wait for your call when you need help? Who always cover you when troubles come? And who always come to me when you're in trouble or about your personal stuff?
I care about my friends but do you ever care about me? Do you think i like to see my friends hate each other? Have you try to stay out of it and think about MY state? I don't need you to repay me but i need your respect. Come bang me infront but not my back k? At least i know i'm in hell after i die.
My name is Yvonne Kow not Yvonne Cow nor Mother Cow. I don't mind you giving me whatever nickname that you think it's funny but, my name is Yvonne Kow, please do remember it. Like or not, my name is still Yvonne. You can call me whatever you want actually, but please don't expect that i will fucking answer you even if the snake or vampire is coming to bite you or whatever. I'll be excited when i see you being torture by others. You deserve it and i mean it.
I am evil, and that's the true Yvonne. I keep quiet doesn't mean i'm with you.
My blog, my thought, my say,
If you don't like my way,
Please do stay away,
But hey,
If you and i meet up in one day,
Don't blame me step on you with my high heels okay?
To whoever think they are the assholes, roll back to your kampung and lock yourself in the cupbaord with your dignity if you have, get it? No? It means FUCK OFF YOU MOTHERFUCKER.

i GoT mY bAg!

So today is the school orientation day. Went for it and bla bla bla... It was boring, i mean really very boring when the stupid pentadbir's speech. It took 1 hour to finished the whole thing. SHUT UP LAR!!! I'm burning under the hot sun wei...
Settle down the students then we're free. Nothing to do, lepak around the school. Half an hour staring at the grass from the stairs near the bilik disiplin. Another half an hour sitting at the pondok do nothing. At last i sms to Tsing come and fetch me to mv.
Didn't know JoNg is going, but still thanks for accompany me. Reached mv, start looking for my school bag from Tropicana Life, then Echo Park, then Studio R, then Nike, then Jusco, then Royal Sporting House, then Body Glove, then Long John Silver's, then back to Tropicana Life. Sorry i just copy down from you Tsing. I don't really remember what shop we went in actually...
Tsing, i have something to tell you too. MEH?! I KNOW I'M BONDED WITH TL K! TL ROCKS!!! -..-"
MCR all around the mall. Sotong, your lucky day.
So finally i got my bag then.

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These are the messages between me, Marianne and Su Wen yesterday. Forgot to blog last night so this is it...

me
marianne + su
su

How u girls doin?
Buying bras for the assholes
HOLY MAMA!
There're sales here! Buy 10 free 5!
OMFG... U must be joking
Here got lace and others type wei... Pink and blue also...
Eh buy pink and lace for them
Okie! Buy 10 for them n 5 for myself. WHEEE~

Ok so it's something like that k? I don't remember the others and i already deleted those messages. My memory card in my brain nows a days are sucks because i'm so so tired. I slept once i reached home then dinner then sleep again. Since im in damn blur state, i was mumbling to my bro when he ask me something. Then he said, what are you talking about? o..O
I can tell that i don't even know what i'm trying to say here...
YOOHOO~ I'm alone at home! I can do whatever i want! Burn the kitchen!!!

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- HAPPY WEEKEND IN MALACCA MARIANNE -
do bring miss micey go with you k

- HAPPY NS-ING MOON TING -
remember to think of me to keep you awake so that you won't be late for training. nightmare~

PMR ReSuLtS dAy...

PMR results are out today. Of course, some happy some sad. Well, i helped out 3U, which is my choir girls gang's class. Their results are not bad. Ann Na, you're real crazy girl. Karen, thanks for your themes!
Marianne, open your mouth to ask them stay and take their photos!
Left school around 1pm. Went to lunch with MT, Ivan and Wai Lik at Citrus Park. Dropped down Ivan, MT fetched me and Wai Lik to his house. Ivan joined us half an hour later. I'm so so tired, fall to sleep on somebody's bed while they're watching funny videos through computer. Wai Lik's laughing voices woke me up when he watched the video that we recorded at Sentul. remember?
Y-up. Watch til 5.30pm, they tried to call Mun Kin but failed. So MT sent a message to him as in a poem. I don't really remember the exactly one but it's something like this...

"Called you tak sampai,
send you message tak reply,
where are you sohai?"

o..O OK...
Then i forgot what's Mun Kin replied. But in the same way, poem -..-"
Well actually Ivan and Wai Lik did created some others such added in some dirty words, while comparing with their taekwondo's skills. You see, boys are 'mou liew'.
We left around 6pm. Dinner with my cousins, got my christmas prezzies!
Orientation day tomorrow!
"Jie jie, i want to go toilet. Where is the toilet arr?"

cHrIsTmAs EvE...

Today is christmas eve, but i'm still stuck in here...
Hopefully can go home tonight.
Merry Christmas to everyone... and myself.

T..T

Hospital smells sucks.

4 dAyS dOwN...

Alarm ring at 8.30am, thought can sleep for more and i totally forgot that i have badminton with friends at 9am -..-" Luckily i saw my calendar. Or else they're gonna kill me if i ffk them.
Reached there around 10am, i saw Sharon's sister, Sophie and her friend standing there and don't know wait for what. Then i went inside the hall, you can hear them screaming "YVONNE!!!" which is very, VERY loud. Guys, sorry k? I know i'm late for 1 hour.. heh...
Played til 11am, changed and walked to 7-11, just for air-cond =P As usual, mamak store next - Ajimal. Others ate roti-bla bla bla, i drank 3 glasses of Teh-O Ais ^..^V I'm thirsty!
Done, Chun Seng called his mom to fetch us...

"Hello mi ar, come and fetch me now."
"Where are you?"
"Erm... I'm at Ajimal lah!"
"Ok lah ok lah. I'm coming."
"EH EH MI! Can bring 3 ringgit for me ar?!!"
"Why?"
"Cause i ate roti-don't know what and i have no money."
"Haiya ok lah ok lah."

@..@ SWT... Chun Seng, how could you pay if your mom is not coming to fetch you??! Waliao eh... I don't wanna wash plates at Ajimal for you k?

Aiya... 3 ringgit only ma... Can hutang wad... You pay for me also can ma... heh...

What if i didn't bring my wallet today? haiyo...
And who say Charmaine Sheh not pretty?!! EFF U MAN...

Went to his house and play piano. Your play station is sucks wei! Me and Feh Fan kept reset it again and again. I rather play mine at home eventhough i don't have so many games as you. We're actually waiting for the games more than playing it -..-" While waiting for Chun Seng kept changing the games to load, Feh Fan and i play the piano like crazy. He play i sing, i play he kacau, then we both play together. He taught me some new songs which i don't really remember how to play now ^..^ But still thank you yo!
Finally, the games loaded! It's V3! Have you play before? Damn nice. It's a street basketball with 3-on-3. You have to play with many different skills to gain points. Chun Seng damn pro, he beat me and Feh Fan T..T I'm new to this game k? Give some face to me wei... hahaha... When i against Feh Fan, Chun Seng kept claiming this and that, shouted everywhere...
"Press O press O!"
"SHOOT LAR!!!"
"AIYOOOO..."
Like he bet all his money on the game -..-" So damn annoying and funny...

Driver came on time, 2.30pm. Went to Marianne's house to give her christmas present. It's a yellow bunny, or a soft little yellow toy, or... aiya whatever it call. Bought it from MV which the day i went for LCM's birthday. Didn't tell her at all cause it's a surprise, but it's not a surprise at all liao, can't even call a surprise. Nevermind... I pity you dog Marianne, you kicked it! How can you do that to a innocent cute doggie! HAHAHA... And why you open it so fast? It's not even christmas yet, even you don't celebrate it, still have to wait til christmas ma... At least wait til christmas eve lar... hmph! =P Anyway hope you'll like it.

Reached home, bath, drink, again, online, music... The end of today.

P.S: Marianne, must you tell the whole world that i woke you up today?!! And you still owe me McFlurry! You can't run away from that!

haRrY LeNg zAi...

Skip today's primary class gathering. Don't feel like going. Don't even know what to talk about... My socialize sucks...
MT, half of my coffee bean with you, don't blend it! Or you owe my 10 bowls of curry mee as Mel said. wuahahaha... I'll bite you! Coffee rocks!
Watched Harry Potter and the Chamber Of Secret last night, they're so cute! Time flies by fast, now they already become leng zai and leng lui. Bad guys are always leng zai. OMG see Tom Riddle! See Draco Malfoy! hahaha... But of course only the young generations i mean, not the old old men... heh... Emily is so addicted to Cedric Diggory. Viktor Krum not bad also. Ahh... Fleur! She's pretty too...
Tomato, you fooled me! I thought you're telling the true T..T
Marianne, i'm not gullible -..-
Anyway, futsal everyone! 27th after the PMR results thingy. Or you want badminton? =P

LCM's BiRtHdAy...

So today, well i mean yesterday, was LCM's birthday. Went to MV for 'celebrate'...
Woke up at 9am, bla bla bla everything gao dim then wait for Huei Wenn at lrt station. Her dad fetch us to MV. Thank you Huei Wenn! And uncle! hahaha...
Reached MV at 11pm sharp. Found out we're the first to arrived. So we walked around and tried to look for Xin Yun's birthday present but failed. Then one by one arrived and met us. Went to secret recipe after collect the tickets. Oh Zheng Hong, you're really a brave man. Do you know what he told the ticket sellerman? 5 children 4 adults -..-" And we like the whole group standing infront of the counter but the sellerman still believe what Zheng Hong said, he gave us the tickets just like that. And we show him our student cards, we're got cheaper and more cheaper ^..^V I love you ZH!
Secret recipe was crazy. They kept talking about the meat balls spaghetti which ordered by Huei Wenn and cheesy spaghetti by Emelia. I'm pretty sure that you don't want to know what they comment about the spaghetti. It's disgusted me T..T
Tham Pui Yin, you're always late to our 'date'. By the way, you looked pretty. But staring at the menu, it won't help you to order even you stare at it for the rest of your life. Blur man... tsk tsk tsk...
Shop for awhile and finally i bought something for Xin Yun. I met her with her friends there too. Wished her but couldn't give her the present by the time because the girl haven't wrap it yet. Have to ask Huei Wenn pass it to her on the prom night, which is tonight.
And guess what we bought for Choy Meng as present? HAHAHA... You won't even thought about it! It's a boxer! Yes! It's a BOXER!!! A blue for base colour and lots of white bunnies! HAHAHA... We signed our signature and wishing words on it then give it to him. He was shocked and surprise. Nice hor?!!
Movie, Enchanted. It's nice but don't you think it's a little bit 'kua jiong'? And some malay girls sit right behind us are so damn freaking annoying. They laughed like crap man... I know the show is funny but aren't you girls have to keep your voices down in the cinema? Huei Wenn and i kept laughing not because of the movie but them -..-" Oh for Emelia, are you really that innocent? Why do you have to cover your eyes with every scenes when they kiss? hahaha... And you really can eat a lot wei.. You've killed 2 packs of popcorn! HAHAHA...
Kient Loong was suffer on Nando's, again. We Choy Meng put lots of different sauces on his meal. HAHAHA... It's already way better than last time. He drank 20 bucks just for plain water from Nando's. GENG MOU?!!

So let's kick off the pictures...

The birthday boy staring @..@

Emelia and Emily

Huei Wenn and Emelia

Yay!

Me the Supervampire ^..^V

Malaysia Charlie's Angel

Weeeeeeee...

Cheeeeeeeeese...

Nice hor? I know i know...

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TADA~ The boxer!

Now my left hip is damn freaking pain but don't know why. Can't walk properly or fast. Blister on my feet T..T
Melissa, i received your handmade christmas card! Thank you so much! I love the san francisco night view that you took. Miss you so much here. When are you going to come back from U.S? I know i still owe you 1 bowl of Swee Hing's curry mee. heh... I saw you online wei... Shouldn't you be sleeping at that time? Take good care of yourself and enjoy your starbucks life there. hahaha... I want starbucks bublegum!
My mom told me there's a letter for me when i reached home. She thought it's something like present or what because it packed in a big envelope. hahaha... And she asked is it from my boyfriend -..-" WTF?!!
Ma, it's from Melissa. She's a girl... 100% girl... WTH...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIN YUN!!!

Oh i knocked my head to my bedroom door today since i'm half sleeping half awake T..T

a PoSt BeFoRe DiNnEr...

A quick post before i go out for dinner. haih... Going out again. I wanna stay at home T..T Anyway, nothing happen today. Search net for games and customize my computer. Ahh... Celebrate my bro's gf birthday. Cake AGAIN... @..@
Oh nah... Here's your pic Marianne, your brunette hair that worth 500 bucks -..-" Yes yes it's nice and natural... So do mine. Only it's natural black... Don't forget you still owe me one McFlurry! HAHAHAH... Look at tomato, so cute...
Tsing, you didn't bring me to the fiesta! HMPH! You owe me another McFlurry!


MV tomorrow, SOMEONE's birthday. Save me...
Manchester United vs Liverpool tonight! MUST watch! Chelsae vs Arsenal too... But which i hate them also... BOOO~

fUnNy ViDeOs...

I found these videos from youtube. Hope you'll enjoy it. It's edited from some famous animations that you might like to watch when you was a kid. I know it's all in chinese but i think you'll understand what they say because it's really very easy for you. It's real funny, so, try to take a look k? You will like them...

dOnE...

PHEEEEEW... Marianne didn't get to kill me. I'm survived! wuahahaha... -..-"
~ I LIKE TO MOVE IT MOVE IT ~ YOU LIKE TO MOVE IT MOVE IT ~

Alarm ring at 9am, but somehow i off it and continue my sweet dream as usual. Then finally woke up at 9.30am, done everything and lagi boleh chat with the dumbass for a while. My instructor is suppose to come and fetch me at 10.45am but he came at 11.15am -..-" Nevermind... Stuck in the car with 3 girls. I hate sitting at the middle T..T
Thought can reach the center before 12pm, but i don't understand the bloody instructor why he kept driving around the same housing area, i'm like what the hell?!! You're wasting my time sir! Hello you lived in serdang since you're baby! Drive like you never come here before. Finally reached the center at 12.30pm ( my half an hour! >=< ) Waiting for my turn to take the test.
Can't believe i'm pass! Yes i'm PASS! OMG am i dreaming?!! Well anyway it wasn't that hard that i expected, kinda easy though...
I'm the 2nd last to go in the room and 1st to came out with only 22 minutes. heheheee... Wait for the others at the common room after took my results. Thought can go home by 3 BUT, the girls want to take the 2nd time because they failed -..-" WTF?!! I wanna go home! Let me go home! You want me to sing the song Home by Westlife to you? T..T My instructor asked me to teach them somemore. WTH... I don't even know them wei... Staring at the tv and, i saw VI on tv! I HATE them so much! HMPH! All looked so sombong-sombong there. Smash you tomatoes then you know... Ooops! Sorry Shiao Yen.
Finally reached home at 5pm. Gosh... I can reach home by 3pm actually!!! Thanks to the girls... iiiissshhhh...... Anyway practical class start on tuesday. Can i skip it?
Home, alone... Watched tv, there's a show called Bloopers on channel 711. It was so damn funny. It's about some funny video clips for all kind of sports from all around the world. I laughed like a so poh there. Luckily no one at home. kekekekek...
At last, i'm done with my photo album. Nah...

Still got somemore from school's file but i didn't show it. Lazy to copy and upload. So that's all for today. Toora~

btw marianne, send me the video!
-supervampire-

pAsT...

Since bored, i tried to arrange my photo album in my computer. And DING! A brilliant idea comes out suddenly. And it tells me to blog in here...

Oh well then, let's take a look of our faces in early of the year.

A lot of apes huh? See all the kiddy kiddy monkey faces. They are so cute!

This, is taken at the end of the year.

Big group but now just left a few apes only. HUGE difference isn't it? They look even more cute here!! But there's always happened a same damn thing, no ME in the picture! I'm always be the camera girl T..T Next year change the camera girl/boy please!

The afternoon session monkeys. Loooooooooooove them so much. Honestly, for me they are more easier to get along with. Because... You know, kids in their age. Easy, lousy, noisy, busy, clumsy, LC, crazy, lazy, silly and bitchy... zooooom-pak! *books fly towards my face* Ouch!! Hey i speak the true!

Remember this stupid activity? We're actually standing and looking a group of crazy apes 'exercising' on the stage. Yeah mov' it on mov' it on! ......................... WAIT! Look closer! CLOSER! I saw Ying, Marianne and Su Wen! WUAHAHAHAHA... They looked cute aren't they?!! Chubbu chubby...

A bunch of monkeys dancing *ahem* i mean exercising.. ZOOM TO THE RIGHT-BOTTOM PLEASE! Y--up. Ma-li-ah-nee was dancing too! Look at her hands and her expression. WUAKAKAKAKAKAKA...

Ain't it stupid? Oh no i don't mean you Marianne, i mean the idea. Bet you must be very, very, VERY happy now do ya? I didn't know i got these pictures until when i look back my photo album... I'm like, WALAO! IS THAT MARIANNE?!! And Su Wen, you look pretty all the time don't worry. Oh by the way, i still got a lot. HEHEHEEEE...
Probably this is my last post here. Because i know the dumbass is going to kill me deadly after she read this. So... Buai buai my friends~ *SNIFF* ahh... i need more blood

back to my undang exercise book. 500 questions, here comes the supervampire~

sLeEpY? NO...

Welcome back, Marianne. Sorry for didn't chat with you last night because i'm not in good mood at that moment. Plus, i bet you are busy with blogging about your enjoyable trip...

Didn't sleep the whole night. Posting this in the morning, which is my first time. Don't believe? Then believe it. By the way, i didn't get enough sleep since monday until now. Why? Not sleepy? Can't say so but, when the time i close my eyes to sleep, my brain will automatically show up something that i don't wish to remember. Lying on my bed and watch tv, one channel to another, until the next morning then wake up. 4 days are gone just like that.
I don't understand why am i so stubborn. You told yourself not to think about it but you just can't control your mind and keep doing the same stupid things. I'm like attacking myself, with pointless. What for you hurt yourself just for a stupid bloody fool? And it's not worth for you. But sometimes, say out is way easier than do. It's way different and difficult.
I tried to cry, but there's no tear. I want to spread out my feels with unlimited, with no one knows. And there's only my room can fill up me and my depression...

oVeR...

Finally, 4 years comes to the end, and it's me to end up this. To put a full stop there is not easy as i thought. I ask myself, do i really have to do this? But there's no more spaces in my brain for me to think, plus, i already decided for long time ago. I know it's not easy for me to take it, but i have to let it go. I know i'm doing the right thing, but at the same time, i know i'm going lose it from now. I want it so bad, but sometimes you have to know what's good for yourself and what will make you feel regret if you keeping it. There's always something you don't want it to happen but it will appear suddenly when you're defenceless. For me, i'll just sacrifice myself and do the best that i can. I just want to out from it with peace. So why can't you just leave me alone?
I've been going through this again, again and again. I've been given so many chances to you, and i keep find different excuses to cover up the scar. Can't you see it's bleeding? Why do you kept scratching it til i get hurt over again? I didn't even bother to tell you because you always think you are right. I thought you will change. But now i guess i was wrong, you don't even know what you did to me and you don't even bother how i feel.
You've done a lot to me, and i appreciate it. I forgive you because you always apologize to me and coax me in your way. You appreciate me a lot because you know i'm very important for you. There's a lot of precious things between both of us and it's priceless in our life. Is it real? Or maybe there's only one stupid fool will think that's our precious memories, only the stupid fool will believe that we are very important to each other - me. Not easy to throw out the things we've been through in 4 years in a short time.
I felt so lonely suddenly. Like no one else living in my world anymore. Everything and time i just have to go through by myself, guess no exception for this time.
I need sometime to recover. A very hard one. How long? I don't know, don't even care. I mean, who cares? Since when people care about me? And since when i care about myself? Who knows what will i do or happen to me on next?

aSs-Es rEuNiOn...

Shiao Yen a.k.a Flat Ass

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Marianne a.k.a Dumb Ass

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Yvonne a.k.a Shit Ass ( Marianne, i've changed mine )

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Ass-es Reunion

Right...... ^..^V

Anyway, woke up and prepare to go for Shiao Yen's piano competition at Sunway University College. SMS with Shiao Yen in the car, and she kept asking whether i'm going or not. Ha! I told her i can't because i'm going to my grandma's house, and... You know, grandma = Shiao Yen. Ooopsy... She's going to kill me if she read this.

Well let's proceed. Reached there exactly the same time with Shiao Yen. She was shocked when she saw me. Met Sammantha too, crap about school things. Oh Shiao Yen, as a friend, must be honest with you right? but promise me never tell your mom about this, she look scary. Yup... *nod nod*

Reached the hall, then we went to toilet. Met up with Marianne when we came out from... errr ya. She came with her so-called brothers and sister. You are lucky they didn't touch YOURS. wuahahahaha...

Shiao Yen was so nervous til she played a bit tiny mistakes, but overall you done well. Mess up with Marianne all the time during the competition. We wrote LOADS of crap in the paper. Hope she'll upload it to her blog. And she got cold and fever. So do i. Why? Ask her... *SNIFF* HaaaaaChiiiiuuuuuuu...

Took some photos before went home. It was fun to mess up with 2 little 'hao po'. Pictures with the Dumb Ass.

Hope you get well before go to Cameron Highland. Enjoy to play with your dearest sister. Oh by the way, do you bring your 3rd sister along with you? 'Cause she might can chat with me when you'r not aound. heh... It's good to fool around with me, the Supervampire!!! Eh eh, no adding 'stupid' this word infront of it k? -..-"

Time to sleep. Tada~
BLOODY ~ ~ ~