nEw YeAr EvE...

Last day of 2007. Everyone, make a wish at 12am tonight if you wish you have a good coming year.
Facing 4 walls at home, waiting to see the fireworks from my window, listening to music that i love, watching shows that i like, life is easy and peace for me now. How i wish the school won't be started so soon.
Happy New Year my friends...
Marianne, forget about the sadness and start a new life. Wish you'll get your endless wishes on the next moment. For friendship, cheers~

i'M sIcK oF iT...

I'm tired. Just tired. Why can't you stop bothering me just for 1 minute? All i want is just peace. Leave me alone k?
To the assholeS, yes i added an S there because there's not only 1 person, i never say who are they and what are they but whoever they think they are one of those, please stop your attitude upon me k? I just can't stand for it. Maybe i'm afraid of you, maybe i'm scare of it, or maybe i have no guts to take the risk. But i just don't like it, i don't like and don't want it to bother me in my daily life k? I want some space, some space that only belong to me and i can do whatever bloody stuff i want. Your faces and your words are coming out everywhere whenever i close my eyes. You know i never sleep since saturday, yes again.
I've done loads of things, and tons of things waiting for me to do, i'm so tired. I want a better sleep, a sleep that can be no bother by anything.
I'm tired to pack my bag, i'm tired to eat, i'm tired to talk, i'm tired tomove, i'm even tired to open my eyes. I just hope that i'll never wake up in the next morning...

rEsPeCt...

Some people just don't understand what's respect mean, and that's really pissed me off.
You people are human right? You know when is the right time to do the right thing isn't it? Most of the time i really don't mind and don't care what you've said and done to me. But it doesn't mean that you can keep on insulting people even more that ever right? I don't wanna argue with you because i thought you will stop with your so-called bloody jokes. I tried my very best to control my anger upon you guys because i know once we break down it'll effect to the others. I find excuses for you just because i don't want to remember the thing's you've said and done to me. We meet in school everyday, in our class, in our free time, the time we've spent, actually is more than i spent with my own family. All of you are close enough with me in class right? Don't you know what is respect? Don't you still don't know what i don't like? Don't you?? I'm being very patience with you guys and you should have know that.
I know i'm fat, so what? At least i have no diabetes. I'm tougher than you asshole.
I know i'm ugly, but nobody's perfect right? You're not the most glamorous in school either fucker.
I know i'm rude, but what do you think you are? Prince William?
I know i'm stupid, but you're not the smartest in the world are you?
If you think you look awful together with me then tell me honestly k? I'll stay miles away far from you don't worry, because i don't want to be your friend either. I'll feel ashamed when we stand together. I would like to be alone so i can do and say whatever i want.
I'm always the evil one, and you guys are the heroes. Do you ever think back who always pay for you drinks and food? Who always there to wait for your call when you need help? Who always cover you when troubles come? And who always come to me when you're in trouble or about your personal stuff?
I care about my friends but do you ever care about me? Do you think i like to see my friends hate each other? Have you try to stay out of it and think about MY state? I don't need you to repay me but i need your respect. Come bang me infront but not my back k? At least i know i'm in hell after i die.
My name is Yvonne Kow not Yvonne Cow nor Mother Cow. I don't mind you giving me whatever nickname that you think it's funny but, my name is Yvonne Kow, please do remember it. Like or not, my name is still Yvonne. You can call me whatever you want actually, but please don't expect that i will fucking answer you even if the snake or vampire is coming to bite you or whatever. I'll be excited when i see you being torture by others. You deserve it and i mean it.
I am evil, and that's the true Yvonne. I keep quiet doesn't mean i'm with you.
My blog, my thought, my say,
If you don't like my way,
Please do stay away,
But hey,
If you and i meet up in one day,
Don't blame me step on you with my high heels okay?
To whoever think they are the assholes, roll back to your kampung and lock yourself in the cupbaord with your dignity if you have, get it? No? It means FUCK OFF YOU MOTHERFUCKER.

i GoT mY bAg!

So today is the school orientation day. Went for it and bla bla bla... It was boring, i mean really very boring when the stupid pentadbir's speech. It took 1 hour to finished the whole thing. SHUT UP LAR!!! I'm burning under the hot sun wei...
Settle down the students then we're free. Nothing to do, lepak around the school. Half an hour staring at the grass from the stairs near the bilik disiplin. Another half an hour sitting at the pondok do nothing. At last i sms to Tsing come and fetch me to mv.
Didn't know JoNg is going, but still thanks for accompany me. Reached mv, start looking for my school bag from Tropicana Life, then Echo Park, then Studio R, then Nike, then Jusco, then Royal Sporting House, then Body Glove, then Long John Silver's, then back to Tropicana Life. Sorry i just copy down from you Tsing. I don't really remember what shop we went in actually...
Tsing, i have something to tell you too. MEH?! I KNOW I'M BONDED WITH TL K! TL ROCKS!!! -..-"
MCR all around the mall. Sotong, your lucky day.
So finally i got my bag then.

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These are the messages between me, Marianne and Su Wen yesterday. Forgot to blog last night so this is it...

me
marianne + su
su

How u girls doin?
Buying bras for the assholes
HOLY MAMA!
There're sales here! Buy 10 free 5!
OMFG... U must be joking
Here got lace and others type wei... Pink and blue also...
Eh buy pink and lace for them
Okie! Buy 10 for them n 5 for myself. WHEEE~

Ok so it's something like that k? I don't remember the others and i already deleted those messages. My memory card in my brain nows a days are sucks because i'm so so tired. I slept once i reached home then dinner then sleep again. Since im in damn blur state, i was mumbling to my bro when he ask me something. Then he said, what are you talking about? o..O
I can tell that i don't even know what i'm trying to say here...
YOOHOO~ I'm alone at home! I can do whatever i want! Burn the kitchen!!!

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- HAPPY WEEKEND IN MALACCA MARIANNE -
do bring miss micey go with you k

- HAPPY NS-ING MOON TING -
remember to think of me to keep you awake so that you won't be late for training. nightmare~

PMR ReSuLtS dAy...

PMR results are out today. Of course, some happy some sad. Well, i helped out 3U, which is my choir girls gang's class. Their results are not bad. Ann Na, you're real crazy girl. Karen, thanks for your themes!
Marianne, open your mouth to ask them stay and take their photos!
Left school around 1pm. Went to lunch with MT, Ivan and Wai Lik at Citrus Park. Dropped down Ivan, MT fetched me and Wai Lik to his house. Ivan joined us half an hour later. I'm so so tired, fall to sleep on somebody's bed while they're watching funny videos through computer. Wai Lik's laughing voices woke me up when he watched the video that we recorded at Sentul. remember?
Y-up. Watch til 5.30pm, they tried to call Mun Kin but failed. So MT sent a message to him as in a poem. I don't really remember the exactly one but it's something like this...

"Called you tak sampai,
send you message tak reply,
where are you sohai?"

o..O OK...
Then i forgot what's Mun Kin replied. But in the same way, poem -..-"
Well actually Ivan and Wai Lik did created some others such added in some dirty words, while comparing with their taekwondo's skills. You see, boys are 'mou liew'.
We left around 6pm. Dinner with my cousins, got my christmas prezzies!
Orientation day tomorrow!
"Jie jie, i want to go toilet. Where is the toilet arr?"

cHrIsTmAs EvE...

Today is christmas eve, but i'm still stuck in here...
Hopefully can go home tonight.
Merry Christmas to everyone... and myself.

T..T

Hospital smells sucks.

4 dAyS dOwN...

Alarm ring at 8.30am, thought can sleep for more and i totally forgot that i have badminton with friends at 9am -..-" Luckily i saw my calendar. Or else they're gonna kill me if i ffk them.
Reached there around 10am, i saw Sharon's sister, Sophie and her friend standing there and don't know wait for what. Then i went inside the hall, you can hear them screaming "YVONNE!!!" which is very, VERY loud. Guys, sorry k? I know i'm late for 1 hour.. heh...
Played til 11am, changed and walked to 7-11, just for air-cond =P As usual, mamak store next - Ajimal. Others ate roti-bla bla bla, i drank 3 glasses of Teh-O Ais ^..^V I'm thirsty!
Done, Chun Seng called his mom to fetch us...

"Hello mi ar, come and fetch me now."
"Where are you?"
"Erm... I'm at Ajimal lah!"
"Ok lah ok lah. I'm coming."
"EH EH MI! Can bring 3 ringgit for me ar?!!"
"Why?"
"Cause i ate roti-don't know what and i have no money."
"Haiya ok lah ok lah."

@..@ SWT... Chun Seng, how could you pay if your mom is not coming to fetch you??! Waliao eh... I don't wanna wash plates at Ajimal for you k?

Aiya... 3 ringgit only ma... Can hutang wad... You pay for me also can ma... heh...

What if i didn't bring my wallet today? haiyo...
And who say Charmaine Sheh not pretty?!! EFF U MAN...

Went to his house and play piano. Your play station is sucks wei! Me and Feh Fan kept reset it again and again. I rather play mine at home eventhough i don't have so many games as you. We're actually waiting for the games more than playing it -..-" While waiting for Chun Seng kept changing the games to load, Feh Fan and i play the piano like crazy. He play i sing, i play he kacau, then we both play together. He taught me some new songs which i don't really remember how to play now ^..^ But still thank you yo!
Finally, the games loaded! It's V3! Have you play before? Damn nice. It's a street basketball with 3-on-3. You have to play with many different skills to gain points. Chun Seng damn pro, he beat me and Feh Fan T..T I'm new to this game k? Give some face to me wei... hahaha... When i against Feh Fan, Chun Seng kept claiming this and that, shouted everywhere...
"Press O press O!"
"SHOOT LAR!!!"
"AIYOOOO..."
Like he bet all his money on the game -..-" So damn annoying and funny...

Driver came on time, 2.30pm. Went to Marianne's house to give her christmas present. It's a yellow bunny, or a soft little yellow toy, or... aiya whatever it call. Bought it from MV which the day i went for LCM's birthday. Didn't tell her at all cause it's a surprise, but it's not a surprise at all liao, can't even call a surprise. Nevermind... I pity you dog Marianne, you kicked it! How can you do that to a innocent cute doggie! HAHAHA... And why you open it so fast? It's not even christmas yet, even you don't celebrate it, still have to wait til christmas ma... At least wait til christmas eve lar... hmph! =P Anyway hope you'll like it.

Reached home, bath, drink, again, online, music... The end of today.

P.S: Marianne, must you tell the whole world that i woke you up today?!! And you still owe me McFlurry! You can't run away from that!

haRrY LeNg zAi...

Skip today's primary class gathering. Don't feel like going. Don't even know what to talk about... My socialize sucks...
MT, half of my coffee bean with you, don't blend it! Or you owe my 10 bowls of curry mee as Mel said. wuahahaha... I'll bite you! Coffee rocks!
Watched Harry Potter and the Chamber Of Secret last night, they're so cute! Time flies by fast, now they already become leng zai and leng lui. Bad guys are always leng zai. OMG see Tom Riddle! See Draco Malfoy! hahaha... But of course only the young generations i mean, not the old old men... heh... Emily is so addicted to Cedric Diggory. Viktor Krum not bad also. Ahh... Fleur! She's pretty too...
Tomato, you fooled me! I thought you're telling the true T..T
Marianne, i'm not gullible -..-
Anyway, futsal everyone! 27th after the PMR results thingy. Or you want badminton? =P

LCM's BiRtHdAy...

So today, well i mean yesterday, was LCM's birthday. Went to MV for 'celebrate'...
Woke up at 9am, bla bla bla everything gao dim then wait for Huei Wenn at lrt station. Her dad fetch us to MV. Thank you Huei Wenn! And uncle! hahaha...
Reached MV at 11pm sharp. Found out we're the first to arrived. So we walked around and tried to look for Xin Yun's birthday present but failed. Then one by one arrived and met us. Went to secret recipe after collect the tickets. Oh Zheng Hong, you're really a brave man. Do you know what he told the ticket sellerman? 5 children 4 adults -..-" And we like the whole group standing infront of the counter but the sellerman still believe what Zheng Hong said, he gave us the tickets just like that. And we show him our student cards, we're got cheaper and more cheaper ^..^V I love you ZH!
Secret recipe was crazy. They kept talking about the meat balls spaghetti which ordered by Huei Wenn and cheesy spaghetti by Emelia. I'm pretty sure that you don't want to know what they comment about the spaghetti. It's disgusted me T..T
Tham Pui Yin, you're always late to our 'date'. By the way, you looked pretty. But staring at the menu, it won't help you to order even you stare at it for the rest of your life. Blur man... tsk tsk tsk...
Shop for awhile and finally i bought something for Xin Yun. I met her with her friends there too. Wished her but couldn't give her the present by the time because the girl haven't wrap it yet. Have to ask Huei Wenn pass it to her on the prom night, which is tonight.
And guess what we bought for Choy Meng as present? HAHAHA... You won't even thought about it! It's a boxer! Yes! It's a BOXER!!! A blue for base colour and lots of white bunnies! HAHAHA... We signed our signature and wishing words on it then give it to him. He was shocked and surprise. Nice hor?!!
Movie, Enchanted. It's nice but don't you think it's a little bit 'kua jiong'? And some malay girls sit right behind us are so damn freaking annoying. They laughed like crap man... I know the show is funny but aren't you girls have to keep your voices down in the cinema? Huei Wenn and i kept laughing not because of the movie but them -..-" Oh for Emelia, are you really that innocent? Why do you have to cover your eyes with every scenes when they kiss? hahaha... And you really can eat a lot wei.. You've killed 2 packs of popcorn! HAHAHA...
Kient Loong was suffer on Nando's, again. We Choy Meng put lots of different sauces on his meal. HAHAHA... It's already way better than last time. He drank 20 bucks just for plain water from Nando's. GENG MOU?!!

So let's kick off the pictures...

The birthday boy staring @..@

Emelia and Emily

Huei Wenn and Emelia

Yay!

Me the Supervampire ^..^V

Malaysia Charlie's Angel

Weeeeeeee...

Cheeeeeeeeese...

Nice hor? I know i know...

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TADA~ The boxer!

Now my left hip is damn freaking pain but don't know why. Can't walk properly or fast. Blister on my feet T..T
Melissa, i received your handmade christmas card! Thank you so much! I love the san francisco night view that you took. Miss you so much here. When are you going to come back from U.S? I know i still owe you 1 bowl of Swee Hing's curry mee. heh... I saw you online wei... Shouldn't you be sleeping at that time? Take good care of yourself and enjoy your starbucks life there. hahaha... I want starbucks bublegum!
My mom told me there's a letter for me when i reached home. She thought it's something like present or what because it packed in a big envelope. hahaha... And she asked is it from my boyfriend -..-" WTF?!!
Ma, it's from Melissa. She's a girl... 100% girl... WTH...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIN YUN!!!

Oh i knocked my head to my bedroom door today since i'm half sleeping half awake T..T

a PoSt BeFoRe DiNnEr...

A quick post before i go out for dinner. haih... Going out again. I wanna stay at home T..T Anyway, nothing happen today. Search net for games and customize my computer. Ahh... Celebrate my bro's gf birthday. Cake AGAIN... @..@
Oh nah... Here's your pic Marianne, your brunette hair that worth 500 bucks -..-" Yes yes it's nice and natural... So do mine. Only it's natural black... Don't forget you still owe me one McFlurry! HAHAHAH... Look at tomato, so cute...
Tsing, you didn't bring me to the fiesta! HMPH! You owe me another McFlurry!


MV tomorrow, SOMEONE's birthday. Save me...
Manchester United vs Liverpool tonight! MUST watch! Chelsae vs Arsenal too... But which i hate them also... BOOO~

fUnNy ViDeOs...

I found these videos from youtube. Hope you'll enjoy it. It's edited from some famous animations that you might like to watch when you was a kid. I know it's all in chinese but i think you'll understand what they say because it's really very easy for you. It's real funny, so, try to take a look k? You will like them...

dOnE...

PHEEEEEW... Marianne didn't get to kill me. I'm survived! wuahahaha... -..-"
~ I LIKE TO MOVE IT MOVE IT ~ YOU LIKE TO MOVE IT MOVE IT ~

Alarm ring at 9am, but somehow i off it and continue my sweet dream as usual. Then finally woke up at 9.30am, done everything and lagi boleh chat with the dumbass for a while. My instructor is suppose to come and fetch me at 10.45am but he came at 11.15am -..-" Nevermind... Stuck in the car with 3 girls. I hate sitting at the middle T..T
Thought can reach the center before 12pm, but i don't understand the bloody instructor why he kept driving around the same housing area, i'm like what the hell?!! You're wasting my time sir! Hello you lived in serdang since you're baby! Drive like you never come here before. Finally reached the center at 12.30pm ( my half an hour! >=< ) Waiting for my turn to take the test.
Can't believe i'm pass! Yes i'm PASS! OMG am i dreaming?!! Well anyway it wasn't that hard that i expected, kinda easy though...
I'm the 2nd last to go in the room and 1st to came out with only 22 minutes. heheheee... Wait for the others at the common room after took my results. Thought can go home by 3 BUT, the girls want to take the 2nd time because they failed -..-" WTF?!! I wanna go home! Let me go home! You want me to sing the song Home by Westlife to you? T..T My instructor asked me to teach them somemore. WTH... I don't even know them wei... Staring at the tv and, i saw VI on tv! I HATE them so much! HMPH! All looked so sombong-sombong there. Smash you tomatoes then you know... Ooops! Sorry Shiao Yen.
Finally reached home at 5pm. Gosh... I can reach home by 3pm actually!!! Thanks to the girls... iiiissshhhh...... Anyway practical class start on tuesday. Can i skip it?
Home, alone... Watched tv, there's a show called Bloopers on channel 711. It was so damn funny. It's about some funny video clips for all kind of sports from all around the world. I laughed like a so poh there. Luckily no one at home. kekekekek...
At last, i'm done with my photo album. Nah...

Still got somemore from school's file but i didn't show it. Lazy to copy and upload. So that's all for today. Toora~

btw marianne, send me the video!
-supervampire-

pAsT...

Since bored, i tried to arrange my photo album in my computer. And DING! A brilliant idea comes out suddenly. And it tells me to blog in here...

Oh well then, let's take a look of our faces in early of the year.

A lot of apes huh? See all the kiddy kiddy monkey faces. They are so cute!

This, is taken at the end of the year.

Big group but now just left a few apes only. HUGE difference isn't it? They look even more cute here!! But there's always happened a same damn thing, no ME in the picture! I'm always be the camera girl T..T Next year change the camera girl/boy please!

The afternoon session monkeys. Loooooooooooove them so much. Honestly, for me they are more easier to get along with. Because... You know, kids in their age. Easy, lousy, noisy, busy, clumsy, LC, crazy, lazy, silly and bitchy... zooooom-pak! *books fly towards my face* Ouch!! Hey i speak the true!

Remember this stupid activity? We're actually standing and looking a group of crazy apes 'exercising' on the stage. Yeah mov' it on mov' it on! ......................... WAIT! Look closer! CLOSER! I saw Ying, Marianne and Su Wen! WUAHAHAHAHA... They looked cute aren't they?!! Chubbu chubby...

A bunch of monkeys dancing *ahem* i mean exercising.. ZOOM TO THE RIGHT-BOTTOM PLEASE! Y--up. Ma-li-ah-nee was dancing too! Look at her hands and her expression. WUAKAKAKAKAKAKA...

Ain't it stupid? Oh no i don't mean you Marianne, i mean the idea. Bet you must be very, very, VERY happy now do ya? I didn't know i got these pictures until when i look back my photo album... I'm like, WALAO! IS THAT MARIANNE?!! And Su Wen, you look pretty all the time don't worry. Oh by the way, i still got a lot. HEHEHEEEE...
Probably this is my last post here. Because i know the dumbass is going to kill me deadly after she read this. So... Buai buai my friends~ *SNIFF* ahh... i need more blood

back to my undang exercise book. 500 questions, here comes the supervampire~

sLeEpY? NO...

Welcome back, Marianne. Sorry for didn't chat with you last night because i'm not in good mood at that moment. Plus, i bet you are busy with blogging about your enjoyable trip...

Didn't sleep the whole night. Posting this in the morning, which is my first time. Don't believe? Then believe it. By the way, i didn't get enough sleep since monday until now. Why? Not sleepy? Can't say so but, when the time i close my eyes to sleep, my brain will automatically show up something that i don't wish to remember. Lying on my bed and watch tv, one channel to another, until the next morning then wake up. 4 days are gone just like that.
I don't understand why am i so stubborn. You told yourself not to think about it but you just can't control your mind and keep doing the same stupid things. I'm like attacking myself, with pointless. What for you hurt yourself just for a stupid bloody fool? And it's not worth for you. But sometimes, say out is way easier than do. It's way different and difficult.
I tried to cry, but there's no tear. I want to spread out my feels with unlimited, with no one knows. And there's only my room can fill up me and my depression...

oVeR...

Finally, 4 years comes to the end, and it's me to end up this. To put a full stop there is not easy as i thought. I ask myself, do i really have to do this? But there's no more spaces in my brain for me to think, plus, i already decided for long time ago. I know it's not easy for me to take it, but i have to let it go. I know i'm doing the right thing, but at the same time, i know i'm going lose it from now. I want it so bad, but sometimes you have to know what's good for yourself and what will make you feel regret if you keeping it. There's always something you don't want it to happen but it will appear suddenly when you're defenceless. For me, i'll just sacrifice myself and do the best that i can. I just want to out from it with peace. So why can't you just leave me alone?
I've been going through this again, again and again. I've been given so many chances to you, and i keep find different excuses to cover up the scar. Can't you see it's bleeding? Why do you kept scratching it til i get hurt over again? I didn't even bother to tell you because you always think you are right. I thought you will change. But now i guess i was wrong, you don't even know what you did to me and you don't even bother how i feel.
You've done a lot to me, and i appreciate it. I forgive you because you always apologize to me and coax me in your way. You appreciate me a lot because you know i'm very important for you. There's a lot of precious things between both of us and it's priceless in our life. Is it real? Or maybe there's only one stupid fool will think that's our precious memories, only the stupid fool will believe that we are very important to each other - me. Not easy to throw out the things we've been through in 4 years in a short time.
I felt so lonely suddenly. Like no one else living in my world anymore. Everything and time i just have to go through by myself, guess no exception for this time.
I need sometime to recover. A very hard one. How long? I don't know, don't even care. I mean, who cares? Since when people care about me? And since when i care about myself? Who knows what will i do or happen to me on next?

aSs-Es rEuNiOn...

Shiao Yen a.k.a Flat Ass

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Marianne a.k.a Dumb Ass

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Yvonne a.k.a Shit Ass ( Marianne, i've changed mine )

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Ass-es Reunion

Right...... ^..^V

Anyway, woke up and prepare to go for Shiao Yen's piano competition at Sunway University College. SMS with Shiao Yen in the car, and she kept asking whether i'm going or not. Ha! I told her i can't because i'm going to my grandma's house, and... You know, grandma = Shiao Yen. Ooopsy... She's going to kill me if she read this.

Well let's proceed. Reached there exactly the same time with Shiao Yen. She was shocked when she saw me. Met Sammantha too, crap about school things. Oh Shiao Yen, as a friend, must be honest with you right? but promise me never tell your mom about this, she look scary. Yup... *nod nod*

Reached the hall, then we went to toilet. Met up with Marianne when we came out from... errr ya. She came with her so-called brothers and sister. You are lucky they didn't touch YOURS. wuahahahaha...

Shiao Yen was so nervous til she played a bit tiny mistakes, but overall you done well. Mess up with Marianne all the time during the competition. We wrote LOADS of crap in the paper. Hope she'll upload it to her blog. And she got cold and fever. So do i. Why? Ask her... *SNIFF* HaaaaaChiiiiuuuuuuu...

Took some photos before went home. It was fun to mess up with 2 little 'hao po'. Pictures with the Dumb Ass.

Hope you get well before go to Cameron Highland. Enjoy to play with your dearest sister. Oh by the way, do you bring your 3rd sister along with you? 'Cause she might can chat with me when you'r not aound. heh... It's good to fool around with me, the Supervampire!!! Eh eh, no adding 'stupid' this word infront of it k? -..-"

Time to sleep. Tada~
BLOODY ~ ~ ~

tAgGeD...

Errr... Can i skip the tasks? I've been tagged for 3! Lazy to type wei... And i'm tired. Let me sleep for few hours and i'll type them when i'm free. Thank you.

*yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawn*

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1 Day KL Shopping Trip

7.55am
- " Hello Yvonne? WAKE UP!!! "
- " Yes i'm up! OK?!! "
- " Ahhh... So sleepy. Gotto go back to sleep adi. "
- " What the hell? Wake up lar! "
- " Ngaaaaaaa... "
7.58am

Bro fetch me to lrt station meet Marianne and her cousin. Was expecting Emily going, but then........ Emily, you better watch out, i'm coming to bite you! Run for your life......!!!

Reached Times Square about 10.20am. Hang around at Borders. Marianne bought a Tsubasu guide book for her sis, and a 'stupid' book for herself. heheheee...

Then went to Sungei Wang, walked... I mean shop... Sit at Vincci shop and read the books while waiting for her cousin to buy her shoes. After that we walked again, to Lot 10. Ahh... Then walked all the way down to Pavilion. Marianne, you really never teman her all the time...

We tried to look for a pencil box for Marianne. But most of the time me and the dumbass walk ourselves and left her cousin shop alone. I kept asking the dumbass 'cause we always left her cousin behind.
" Where's your cousin? "
" Aiya... Don't know and don't care lah. "
-..-" That's how you treat your cousin?

And guess who we met? It's Siti NurHaliza! Marianne kept asking me to take her autograph as a proof. It's her k? It's really Siti NurHaliza! Why don't you believe me huh?! T..T

Then replied Marianne's mommy messages. Then walked again. And finally, we found Marianne's pencil box at MNG. Since we looked for few shops before.
" Wanna buy this? "
" Dunno. "
" o..O "
" See first lar. "
" No regret? Sure? "
" Errr... Wait. "
Nah! See! Should thanks to me because i saw it first! Anyway, got iron it? hahahaha...

Went to Baskin Robins eat ice-cream. Felt sorry to the waiters because we, *ahem* i mean Marianne drop the cream on the table. Err... Nevermind.

OK what's next? hmm... Crap a lot about the asshole. hmm... Oh ya! Guess what? We went on the wrong train! Thanks to w-h-o? =/ We took nearly 45 minutes only get back to Sri Petaling. Bought something in Carrfour then went home.

That's all i guess. Did i missed something? Ahh nevermind... Others leave them to Marianne to blog. ^..^V

Eh, remember to write the hate note to him ya.

iDeA?

Hmm... Nothing to blog about. But since the greatest Einstein, err i mean Anna asked Edison to, which mean me, i'm the great Edison, i'll just write anything that i can think about. ( And of course, Newton is my friend. ) za dou -..-"

Anyway, waiting for Shiao Yen to sms me. We sms to each other everynight, crap a lot. Shiao Yen, hope you see this. WE ARE SO 'CHEONG HEI' IN EVERYNIGHT!

Worship the vampires! Because i'm one of them. So, beware... Your neck and hands will be my target ^..^V Ahh... I can smell the freshy bloods from here...

Going to KL with the dumbass boss, Ma-Li-Ah-Nee and her cousin, maybe her sis going too. Remember to morning call me at 8am! Oh by the way, what's her name arr?

mE aGaIn...

-Happy Birthday to my dearest brother-

Dinner with family at MV. Met Chun Seng's family on the way home. That's all for today.

Thanks for viewing. Bye.

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So, your face expression told me that it was my fault again.
It's my fault, because i didn't lead you to the place that you want.
It's my fault, that i'm asking you again and again the same question that you never know what to answer me.
It's my fault, that i keep quiet all the way while sitting there with you, and i don't really want to talk or answer you anything.
It's my fault, that you were standing there and scolded me in public, and i only can look on the floor without saying a word.
It's my fault, that you never trust me in anything i wanted to do.
It's my fault, that i did everything you've planned for me even though i don't want to, but you never give a look the things that i've done.
It's my fault, again, because i think our elationship are getting further and further, even i saw you everyday.

I miss you, but where are you when the time i really needed? I love you, and i know you love me too, but is it you have to show it in your way? I trusted you, but you never give a damn on me. I kept finding excuses to cover up my pain, to dig them deep inside my bloody heart, but you just only know how to find them out from there and keep repeating the same thing to hurt me...

Why are you so cruel to me? What did i've done? Tell if i'm wrong... I don't want to die just like that, at least give me an answer, or excuse. I accept anything from you, and all i want is just your love and trust. Is it so hard to give them to me? But i gave you all my life, and that's the way you treat me back...

Who can i lean on now? Who can i trust now? Who can i give my love to?
Well, at least give me a pillow, so that i can sleep on it and cry out...

wHaT a ThUrSdAy...

Someone called and wake me up from my sweet dreams. Marianne, HMPH! T..T She asked me am i going to school or not? Oh what if i don't? But anyway, i still went to meet her. Actually i'm going to school for choir party, but since not many people go so we canceled it. Then when i reached school, we both walked to her house under the hot sun. "So freaking cold..." "Come one please rain!" o..O Alright, i walk with her to her house still.

Watch some funny videos from her camera that she recorded from this morning at Seri Mega. She kept complaint that the trophy is so damn ugly. I know... Stop showing off k? Can't believe that she got the 1st prize for poster drawing competition before in she's in primary school. hahaha...

She tried to block me off to see her photos on the piano. Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeh~ I still can see them wei... You look... CUTE! HAHAHAHAHA... Seriously, doesn't look like you. But of course you look prettier than that. Damn! Didn't get to mess up her wardrobe. I missed a very nice chance. Don't worry, i'll get you in someday. hehehe...

We fool around in the living room. Talk a lot of crap there... Mostly about the asshole that we hated. He's really an asshole! Til 3.45 her parents came home, and i walk again to carrfour under the rain. And now, i got headache T..T

See, i so good. Such a good worker huh? I went to meet you WITHOUT my breakfast. Then walked with you under the hot sun and under the rain alone. haih... I know i'm good. Don't mention it. hahahahaha...

Til here, happy holiday people.

LAST day!

HOOOOOORAY!!! Last day of school!!! Well, actually we still have to go to school until friday but, since you know i'm a VERY lazybum, sooooooooo... heheheheeee... I'm NOT going to school unless there's something VERY important. Choir celebration tomorrow, yes party again. But i'm still thinking whether going or not? I've been went for 6 parties in just this month!

OK balik kepada last day of sekolah. I thought the last day would be more fun, but, i really have nothing to do other than following the 'idiots' go ronda and duty around the school. Then, play basketball with the guys. Lepas tu, raining... Then, play again. You know what? Aaron spent 14 dollars just to call and order the McD! But at the end, they canceled it -..-" My 14 bucks!!! T..T They order pizza... Ahh what the hell...

Marianne and Shiao Yen got wet, i mean VERY wet. Marianne and Ying made some 'chicken little' hairstyle to Shiao Yen from their 'secret fortress' to the canteen. Funny... Pictures in my phone. Play water with Ying, but the Unhandsome Chew stop us. HATE YOU!

Ying, Shiao Yen, Marianne and i made a special cake for him. Ying and Shiao Yen keep sneezing on it. EWWWWW...... And we added on everything we're having like the bun and Nips. We plan to throw it to him as our revenge. BUT, he went home without any harm -..-" See you Marianne! Why you walked away? Now he can relax at home without our revenge! I HATE him forever man! And he's not my 'dear' friend k? If he is, then he's my 'deer' friend. ASSHOLE!

Ahh well, goodbye to everyone before went home, hugged Su Wen when i past by her and Candy they all. I'm gonna miss you guys!

Taking undang class on this sunday. Ivan, you're gonna pay what you've said to me. You watch out, you...

Til then, toora people~

sEcOnD LaSt...

Wooo... Holidays are coming!!! What's your plan huh?

Went to school at 10.30 a.m. Wait for 'someone' who came late -..-" Then busy with the stupid dumb paper works. She kept complaint about why the hell the head and another assistant leave all the works to her and never help out. Relax girl...

The so-called Handsome Chew asked me to teman him for lunch with other friends. Our laughing voice, are scary i can tell -..-" It was sooooooo embarrassing. Lesson learned: Never go lunch with your ketua and his friends. Oopsy...

Balik to school, we, i mean me, Handsome Chew, Jun Lim, Pei Yi, Su Wen and the most innocent girl Chi Yan talked about.. Something that you don't need to know, or can say you don't want to know about it. Well, you really want to know? Really? I mean, really??? Fine, here's the story... At first, we talked about how does the women feed their own child with their 'milk'. Secondly, we discussed the process of 'sex'. For your information, the so-called Handsome Chew is the professor of this topic. He can explain very clearly to you, so if you have any problem with this, please refer to him. Don't worry, no tax at all. Marianne and Ying said they can hear our voice far from the stairs. Really or not?

Oh ya! Marianne, Ying and Shiao Yen paint my hand with pen. Thanks to you girls, now my hand still can see the things that ya'll paint T..T Ma-li-ah-nee draw some different emotions on every single of my fingers. Somemore write the dirty words on it. Damn you. And ya, thanks for showing me the book, Marianne. Puke somemore!!!

Ronda under the rain around the school with 3 little cutie idiots. Actually it's kinda fun fooling around with them. I'm the 4th idiots since then ^o^

Shiao Yen play piano before i went home. I see Marianne play piano at last!!! wuakakakakaka... And guess what? My bag locked inside the dicipline room T..T Damn...

Tomorrow is the last day i can fool around with them. How sad... Haih... Promise me keep in touch and go kai kai with me during holidays k? Miss you guys soooooo freaking much.

Til then, toora people~

BiRtHdAy...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!!!

Thanks for the wishes from my friends. Lot's of ya'll sms to me and so do on MSN, friendster too. No celebrating at home, because i don't want to. My mom keep asking me " You really don't want ar? It's your birthday wor?! " Yes... I really don't want. I mean, what for? Waste money and time only... But thanks to my family also, they tried to push me out for dinner but i refused. heh...

Anyway, no school tomorrow. But i'm still going at 10 something for 'something'. Good luck for those sitting for SPM, all the best for ya'll. Don't forget to belanja me after exams.

And oh! Marianne, i think you need the aroma more than i need it. Just relax k? Although i can't help you but, like you said, smile always? Rest more if you headache. Ahh... i think you're right. I'll just keep asking you to sleep and rest.

Til here, toora everyone~

mY eArLy BiRtHdAy...

Before go for my birthday 'party', i looked at the mirror, and it reminds me this...

Good job, Emily

Thanks to Chun Seng's brilliant idea... Do you see the candle is DEEP inside the cake?

And they push me to take out the candle... with my mouth. YUCK

The 'bloody' vampire is about to cut the cake

Kah Deng using SK-II cream

2 dumb people playing the cream

All my prezzies... Love them all!

Aren't they nice and cute?

A birthday card sign by my lovely friends. Made by Feh Fan

1st page

2nd page

A rugby sign by professor Daniel Kelch. "To A Good Student" and that's me ^..^V Oh! I stole another one to play. heh...

A graduation Mashimaro from Annie

A dry sponge cake made by Feh Fan

Jasmine aroma and a card from Marianne

My collections...

Thank you guys who made me a 'party' like this. Thanks to Marianne, you've done a lot for me, too. Feh Fan, Karen, Anna, Choy Meng and Emelia, thanks for the cake and the party. So do with the form 5's, MT, Wai Lik and Kah Fai, thanks for coming. Thanks to Hee Voon to help me with the 'SK-II Mask'.

Marianne, what you wrote in the card, i felt very touched, thank you so much. Feh Fan, thanks for your 'cake'. Karen and Anna, i know you girls went to bought the cake, and it taste nice, thanks very much. And those whoever i didn't mention out, sorry for that, But i know you guys are the best. For those who wish me happy birthday, thank you too. Melissa, you still remember my birthday, thanks for calling me all over from U.S., hope you have a great life there. And remember to pay your 'thing'. hahahaha... Glad to hear your voice in the morning, it's very fun to talk with you the whole afternoon. Too many people i wanna thanks here, sorry. heh...

Anyway, Enjoy the weekends and holidays.

Happy Birthday to me!

ShOpPiNg...

Went to Kok Fei's house for Deepavali event. Lunch at there. Erm... I don't really want to talk about the food. Kinda boring actually. But thanks anyway. Then went to Sungei Wang for shopping. Wanted to meet Marianne but, nevermind...

Bought clothes from Baleno, Voir, Seed and... Forgot already. Pants, skirts and etc etc. But i can tell, it was boring... ^..^ Mom keep saying "This is good!" "This one cheap wei!" "This is nice!" "OMG! You need this!" o..O

Eh you really want to go rollerblades during holidays? You want me to teman you or protect you? -..-" Me afraid i'm the one who need to protect later. hahaha... I wanna mess up your wardrobe! wuakakaka... And so you know, i didn't talk to him today.

Good luck tomorrow.

Before Deepavali...

The last day for form 3 students. Holidays comes to them!

Stayed back until 4pm. Marianne the gang was totally crazy. Farn Yeong, sorry to kick your ass and your ~tut~ , they asked for. Pay me! Friday, big day for afternoon prefects. But i'm still confusing should i go to school or not? School? Boring without friends, yes you Marianne. Home? Bored til die. Thanks for your suggestions, non of them i'm interest. I'm confused. I want holidays, but i don't want holidays. Err... What am i talking about?

Holidays coming! What's your plan?

I WanT...

Why is it so hard to show up your feels? I need to know.
Why are you always did that to me? I really need to know.
I care about you, but do you really know that?
All i want is just to share your feelings, nothing much.
I want to know what happened? Why can't you just tell me?
I don't need rewards, all i need is the truth.
I appreciate so much about our friendship, but do you?
I do everything for you, and i know you did too.
But where are you when the time i need you?
Today, when i'm in trouble, i have a very hard time to recover my mood. I didn't even say a single word the whole day. But i have to fake smile to you. I have to pretend nothing happen at all.
Why? Because i don't want you to worry.
I spread out my felt in afternoon. I spread out my anger to them, but i still control my temper eventhough i feel like crying.
My friends kept asking me what happened? But i never tell. Why? Because i know they can't help me.
I just want to be alone. But you're the only one came out from my mind.
I need you, but you're not there for me.
Should i tell you about this? Should i tell you how i feel?
If i do, i'm afraid this is the end of our friendship.
My heart is so suffer and empty, i don't know what to do now. I can't breathe, i need a break.
I wanted to talk to you, but i don't dare. Because i just don't.
Is it funny? You are my best friend, but i couldn't tell you anything about my feelings.
I felt like wanna kill myself now.
Hey girl, when you're in trouble, i tried to find you and cheer you up. But you just don't let me.
I don't dare to tell you that i felt hurt, because i don't wanna hurt you.
All i can do is just type out what i felt, in here.
I wish i have a brain wash, so that i won't remember the bad memories.

tHaNk U...

Thanks to Marianne, Ying and Ern, you girls rocks! Love ya'll forever!

I really like the muffins. IT'S TRUE k? I appreciate it a lot. First time i have 16 homemade muffins as a present. Just, something special for me... Seriously, i speechless... Now i regret to share my present with my friends. hahaha... I want them to be in my freeze now! If you want to see the pictures please go to Marianne's blog, Muffins Mania! Err... Lazy to upload heh... Born to be lazy...

Something happened to Shiao Yen today. Well, actually not only her, prefects you know. I give up.. Really do, as always. Feel like wanna slap them kao kao man! Anyway, non of my business also. Let them die naturally. Not like i care. Even i care, what can i do? I can't campur tangan also. I'm just trying my best to help, to solve the problems. Maybe i don't have to, but as a prefect, i just feel like need to give a hand when troubles come. Marianne, thanks very much. I know i've asked stupid questions last night. I'm so touched when you said something like that.

Asthma today. I'm sorry to interrupt your meeting Marianne, Shouldn't let you know about it. Erm... Too many about Marianne today. hahaha... As you can see, how many times i've type her name here...

I want the prefect night photos! Please send to me!

Well i guess that's all for today. Gonna continue my boring school life tomorrow. Toora people~